Sunday, March 1, 2015

I don't diet. I deficit.

I don't know about you but I have spent "almost" most of my life on a diet. You see I have that thing that a lot of women have called "if I am breathing then I must hate my body and diet". The mentality that my body was to be praised if it lost weight started at about the age of 12. I didn't even know my body needed to be smaller until I started receiving all the praises and accolades. The crazy thing about shrinking your body is people sure notice and boy do they want to tell you about it.
This was really just the beginning of the end for me and my body... torture ensued.

Diets from that moment forward (and in order):

*weight watchers
*not eating
*cigarette diet
* coffee diet
* diet coke diet
* slim fast diet
* take a crap load of supplements diet
* weight watchers
* way low calorie diet
* do not eat things you can't pronounce diet
*clean eating diet
*all raw foods diet
* smoothie diet
* weight watchers
* slim fast diet

I don't think I am missing any of my diet phases but there have been so many who really knows.   So what did all this dieting get me... the perfect body with the perfect body fat percentage. Nope. What it did for me was :
* the same 70 lbs.  lost and found over and over and over and over and over again.
*It got me a diagnosis of anorexia.
*It got tons of hair falling out and clogging up my shower drain.
*It got my menstrual cycle down to 24 hours.
*It got my hormones ALL messed up.
*It also made me an elitist douche bag who thought she was better than those around me eating "bad" food. All of those things sucked and made me hate life but  the worst thing dieting did for me was strain my relationships.

When people want to go to dinner and all you can do is panic, freak and cry because they chose a restaurant with carbs... well, lets just say that isn't a positive thing for a marriage. I was always taught that dieting meant you had self control, health, and a great body. I have never found dieting to cause rainbows, unicorns or tiny baby pandas.

But what did bring rainbows, unicorns and tiny baby pandas was the day that I  stopped looking at health and weight loss as magical and started looking at it from science and reality. There is this crazy word called "deficit".
So... now I deficit.

Did you know that if you want to lose weight you don't have to go on some crazy diet that you hate. You can eat a few hundred calories less than you burn and go into a small deficit. You can actually go into any size deficit that you want. I just choose the small one because... I HATE large deficits.
I also choose the small one because I am no longer in this race with my body to see how fast I can lose all my fat.

I have decided that diets are not the answer. I have decided that diets actually only slow down the process to real change... so I will just sit over here and deficit.